And now I do my best imitation of Eeyore

[usullusa]

Well, I can't think of a single reason as to why I am back in CT. I have barely seen my parents except for that first night when we went out to eat to celebrate my mother's birthday. It's dark and cold and empty and lonely in this house. We aren't even eating meals together and there's no food to be had anyway. And my mother and I keep on having little tiffs over stupid things, mostly in which she either criticizes me for being too boyish/not girly enough or tries to micromanage my life. Have I mentioned that it's really cold? And not cozy? And I feel really lonely? Yea.

Also I don't know what it is, but I haven't had a proper meal in at least four days. Either there's nothing to eat or on the rare occasion there is, I can't finish more than a third of my plate. It's really bizarre and sort of worrisome how listless I've become towards food lately. I can't afford to lose weight... my normal body weight is way too close to being unhealthy as it is.

At least my friends are back for break too and I get to see them.

I think I may be PMSing because everything is making me unhappy. Fuck you body. STOP CONTROLLING MY MIND. NOT OKAY. This is one of the things that freaks me out the most about my body.

Comments

[sythia.livejournal.com]

This is going to be a short response since I'm literally on my way out the door for my bio final, but:

1. You are awesome. So awesome.

2. Wrap yourself in a blanket at all times. YOU CAN'T LET THE WINTER WIN, KAT.

3. Tell me any time you want to come over to my house for noms or company. Since we're having a billion people over my mom actually has to keep the house stocked with food (for once) so there will be plenty to go around. And as for company, come on, even "that freak ass bitch" is better than an empty house, yes? >> (yes, I demand validation)

4. If you need something to be excited about just remember that SHERLOCK HOLMES COMES OUT ON FRIDAY AND WE ARE GOING!

5. I lied. This isn't a short response. But I hope it makes you feel better anyway?


Rah. Have to run. Don't hesitate to call me anytime! (*cough cough* not between 12:00 and 1:50pm today, but otherwise any time *cough cough*)

[cheetahkeys.livejournal.com]

i understand the freaking out thing. nothing makes me angrier than the fact that once a month i'm forced to relinquish control of my body and my emotions to nature. it makes me want to hit things with blunt objects. we should make a day of it sometime.

you are home to see all of your friends who love you and have missed you dearly during school.

we will hang out. often. with food. delicious food. that i will force you to eat. or else.

<3

[margaritria.livejournal.com]

come to my house on saturday and i will feed you full of food! <3 <3 <3 *hugs*