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And now I do my best imitation of Eeyore
Dec. 22nd, 2009 04:13 amWell, I can't think of a single reason as to why I am back in CT. I have barely seen my parents except for that first night when we went out to eat to celebrate my mother's birthday. It's dark and cold and empty and lonely in this house. We aren't even eating meals together and there's no food to be had anyway. And my mother and I keep on having little tiffs over stupid things, mostly in which she either criticizes me for being too boyish/not girly enough or tries to micromanage my life. Have I mentioned that it's really cold? And not cozy? And I feel really lonely? Yea.
Also I don't know what it is, but I haven't had a proper meal in at least four days. Either there's nothing to eat or on the rare occasion there is, I can't finish more than a third of my plate. It's really bizarre and sort of worrisome how listless I've become towards food lately. I can't afford to lose weight... my normal body weight is way too close to being unhealthy as it is.
At least my friends are back for break too and I get to see them.
I think I may be PMSing because everything is making me unhappy. Fuck you body. STOP CONTROLLING MY MIND. NOT OKAY. This is one of the things that freaks me out the most about my body.
Also I don't know what it is, but I haven't had a proper meal in at least four days. Either there's nothing to eat or on the rare occasion there is, I can't finish more than a third of my plate. It's really bizarre and sort of worrisome how listless I've become towards food lately. I can't afford to lose weight... my normal body weight is way too close to being unhealthy as it is.
At least my friends are back for break too and I get to see them.
I think I may be PMSing because everything is making me unhappy. Fuck you body. STOP CONTROLLING MY MIND. NOT OKAY. This is one of the things that freaks me out the most about my body.
